I was Fourteen when the world caved in
When loss became the air I breathed
Grief curled its fingers around my throat
A silent weight I couldn’t leave
They told me time would dull the ache
But time just made me numb instead
I saw her face in every dream
Heard her voice inside my head
A mother lost to poison’s pull
A love consumed by smoke and flame
I held her memory in my hands
But all it did was whisper blame
I raged I wept I turned away
From every hand that reached for me
How could they know How could they fix
A wound that bled invisibly
The nights were long the days were gray
Each moment felt too sharp too real
I drowned in thoughts I couldn’t stop
Suffocating on what I couldn’t feel
Depression crept into my bones
Made a home within my chest
It told me lies it stole my strength
It made my heart forget to rest
But somehow somewhere light broke through
Not all at once but bit by bit
A voice that said You’re still alive
And I decided not to quit
I spoke my pain I let it breathe
And slowly it released its grip
The love she gave the love she left
No longer felt like a sinking ship
I miss her yes I always will
But grief is not a heavy chain
It walks beside me not ahead
A shadow softened by the rain
I am not lost I am not weak
I am not bound to sorrow’s thread
She was my mother flawed but fierce
And love remains where she once bled
So here I stand not whole not new
But stronger than I was before
Through pain through loss through darkest nights
I found a way to be once more