Today is just another day
Another insult to my face, a new bruise on my pride
Sometimes I just need to get away
I don’t like it when you walk on me
But you always make sure I can’t be heard
I think I’m ready to be free
It’s funny until you’re left on your own
Why does it feel like everyone hates me?
But it doesn’t matter, because I have a different kind of throne
I come back home, hiding the tears fresh from being subject to society
I immediately run up to my room and dodge any questions
At least I can recognize it isn’t the best show of filial piety
I go to my computer and log on to my favorite website
The funny little pixels on my screen like to talk to me, at least
Sometimes they tell me that it’s alright
It’s just a way to inebriate my desire to be left alone, really
Which, as I think about it, contradicts my desire to be heard
But words are just words. Doublethink is pretty silly
My loneliness is swelling up, but all I can do is put a bandage on it
I don’t care if that bandage has thorns in it, it helps me cheer up
The bandage is me posting dog pictures and talking to strangers for a bit
I don’t mind if they aren’t real
It lets me escape the harsh reality of the general public
But honestly, thinking about the other people is pretty surreal
This happens all the time
And I think it’s a sad excuse for serotonin
But you can lock me up if needing someone to be there is a crime
But you can lock me up if needing someone to be there is a crime
I know I’m weird
I spend all my time daydreaming and messing around
But those people are the reason why I disappeared
The inherently delusional nature of my situation is kind of funny, to be honest
I’m happy to go on the web and talk to my so-called friends
But they’re just little distractions from despair
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Santiago, NJ
Category Winner - Poetry: Sometimes I feel like a loser, like I don't really fit in. It sucks- I know I have a strong voice, but it's hard to stand up for myself when everyone brushes me off. Whenever I go online, I can post a meme, or share my thoughts, and many people will be supportive and listen to me. Social media allows me to have a presence, but the problem is that in the end, it isn't real. It gives me temporary dopamine at the cost of being addicted to a fictional world, and maybe it hurts more than it helps.